almost a year without a daddy

March 15, 2009

Dear Lord,

It’s almost a year that my daddy’s been with You up there in heaven. How’s my daddypot? Is he doing great? I wonder what he’s been doing right now. But one thing is for sure, he is worshipping You all throughout the day, right Lord? Did he already know how to sing in tune? hehe. I wonder what does he looks like right now. Did he gain weight? Did his skin become fairer? I believe my daddy’s eating the freshest fruits and veggies up there. How big was his home? Was it a mansion? A palace that’s made of gold? Who are in his neighborhood? Did he already meet David, Moses, your 12 disciples up there? Are they already friends? How often do You have conversations with him Lord? I am not sure of these things but did he ever tell stories about us? Did he ever say that he missed us so much? Did he remember me? Did he ask about mami? About my kuyas?

Lord, i miss my daddy.=’( A lot. I miss him every day of my life. I remember him every moment. I still envy those people who still have their daddies with them. Oh well, I am no longer hurting that You took him away. I’ve already accepted everything, You know that. I’m just missing my daddypot. =’(
Lord, if You happened to talk to him today. Can You tell him that I missed him so much? Lord I know You can say it to him in a manner that he won’t be lonely. Will You whisper to his ears that I love him? That he still owns the title “best daddy and the best husband to my mom in the whole wide world”?

Lord, can you report what’s happening here? hmmm. Only the best things. I mean the things that You have been greatly doing to us, his family. And to our church. Lord, can you tell him that we’re getting closer to the promise land? That You’re already teaching us to crossover and conquer what You have promised? That we totally embraced the G12 vision. That we regularly have net meetings, cellgroups, etc. And please tell him that mommy’s doing great as a pastor! She’s doing well, she’s trying really hard, and she’s giving her best to continue what You have started to his life. And can You tell him that You have blessed us with many things. Nice sound system, a projector, etc.

Lord, can You tell him that we, his sons and daughter are following Your will? That we are active in serving You? Uhmm. Lord, You know the truth. If we are truly following Your will, hehe. Even his grandson and granddaughter are also missing him.

Lord, can You tell him about me? How I’m trying my best to please You in everything I do? Oops Lord, I know I’m still not that good and consistent enough, hehe. But I think, it can make him smile somehow. Please tell him that I still don’t have a boyfriend = p Because my heart still awaits on Your will Lord. ^^ I still remember, and I am still applying the things he taught me before. Please just whisper to him that I’m getting chubbier, hehe. Lord, please embrace him for me? And gently tell him that I love him so much.

*sigh* honestly Lord. I am really not sure if he will hear these things. Anyway Lord, it is still about You in the end ^^ I truly and strongly believe that You understand me, being emotional because You once lost Your loved one too.

You took my daddy away for a purpose. And I thank You with all my heart for that reason..

Lord, I love my daddypot, You know that. And I am so blessed and grateful to have him even for just a moment. I will see him when I get there..= ) We will have a grand reunion!

*hugs* thank You so much Lord. You’re my physical and spiritual daddy now. And I am so much contented and satisfied..^^
I love You so much.