back to the first love

January 10, 2009

Think of this: You are single, and you strongly believe that the Lord already prepared someone who’s perfect and suitable for you. You always daydream on how and when will you meet him. You always ask the Lord where is he now? What does he looks like? What could be your love story? How he’s gonna sweep off your feet? And you do things you know what pleases the Lord. You read the Bible, you share the Word to others, and you talk to Him often. You do these things because you “should” but part of you saying ”Lord, you might be somehow pleased by my acts and you might shorten the waiting time for me to meet my prince charming ” You think that when you get closer to the Lord, you’ll also get closer to the one created for you. You consume your thoughts about your future marriage. You tell the Lord that you’ll wait for Him patiently to bring you the one created for you.

Is it the right thing?

I’ll give you another scenario: There’s one guy whom you think likes you. He waited for you to come out from the school/office. He asked for your number. And eventually you had long conversations with him over the phone. You had coffee dates. He gave you gifts. You consumed to the thought that he likes you. You’re beginning to like him but not yet sure of his real intention. And when you finally asked him what was the meaning of his acts, he would say “Honestly, I think I like you-r best friend, would you mind helping me to get closer to her? Because you know her very well, thanks a lot.”

Oouuch! So unfair!

Now pause, ponder, and relate the two scenarios. Somehow the same, right?

Actually, we are like that guy. Oh well, it’s not wrong to do things that please the Lord that we think might shorten the waiting time. Hoping and waiting for Him to bring the person created for us. I said it’s not wrong. But it’s not just like that.

It’s too selfish.

If we’re pleasing the Lord just for the sake of meeting your future spouse, better stop it and ask Him to correct your motive. The Lord is not a delivery boy, where our concern is only to the thing He will deliver. The Lord is supposed to be our first love.

Revelations 2:4-5 “Yet I hold this against you; you have forsaken your first love.”

Yeah, we do love the Lord. But sometimes, it’s just an appearance that we love the Lord. Because actually, there’s something or someone in our hearts we regard as our first love. We are consumed of selfish thoughts and motives. We unintentionally replace God’s perfect love in our hearts with the longing and desire of someone’s love.

Why don’t we set our interests, our eyes, our whole being, our love to the Lord? He deserves all of it. Get more in love with Him because only His love can make us feel satisfied and complete. Isn’t the cross an enough reason to make Him our first love?
Consume your thoughts about the Lord’s goodness and kindness. Think of his never ending mercy every morning. Talk to Him regularly. Read His Word daily. Do His will. Share His Word to others. Seek and look for Him always.

Until you come to a point wherein you’re not interested anymore to selfish things and just entrust the Lord everything.

You won’t do this just because of any other reason. You will do this because you want to go back to your first love. ^_^