greater plans; bigger plans

October 24, 2006

Early this morning (4am), I got up from my bed. I checked on the internet. I searched for exam results. Shocks! That was the longest hour in my life. As I was scrolling down the list of successful CPA Board Passers, many things ran into my mind (oath taking, what I’m gonna wear during that occasion, thanksgiving celebration, good job=good compensation. Or otherwise, teary eyes, comforting words from my family and friends). Surnames that start with the letter AAAAA…..BBBBB….and then CCCCC. My name was not on the list. I felt that my world has just stopped for that moment. I started asking questions to myself. What about God has just told me these past few weeks? What does it mean? Then my mom held my hand, she asked me if I’m okay. She said that I should sleep again. As I was on my bed, tears ran into my eyes. I cried. But still thanking the Lord for everything. Well, I didn’t get instant answers to my questions. The Lord just let me felt that He has better and bigger plans for my life. As He said in His Word that His thoughts are higher than my thoughts. In short, He knows what He has been doing to me right now. I felt like I’m really blessed, even though I didn’t make it to the board exam passers. It’s because of God, of course. Ever-loving and supporting family. And evercomforting friends. I’m thanking the people who prayed for me and those who also got nervous with me during examinations, hehe. I’m fine now. I failed this exam, but I still got Jesus in my heart. Godbless!