it's all because of love

July 22, 2007

This afternoon, after worship service, I went to our outreach, with my beloved anaks (I mean cellgroup, hehe) We visited there yung mga youth na nakaattend last summer youthcamp na currently inactive na. Iba yung naging feeling ko. I felt the burden. Because I admit it, fault ko din kung bakit sila naging inactive din because nagkulang din talaga ko sa follow up & focus sa kanila. But anyway, there’s always a second chance naman kay Lord diba. He’s the God of second chances, never ending chances.

I’m telling you guys. It’s not a pleasant place na magaganda yung houses & yung streets. I’ll describe it as parang desert pag summer, kasi sobrang maalikabok dahil lupa kasi sya eh, & feel na feel mo si haring araw. Pero pag rainy days, may baha & maputik. And then matrai2n kang magbalance dun. Literal na balancing because tutulay ka sa kapiranggot na kahoy or yung tapakan mo eh maliliit na bato lang & pag na out of balance ka, sorry. Lubog ka sa putik,hahaha! And then daming guys, I mean guys na “tambay” , mga drunk pa. Yung mga nakakatakot na mama, alam mo yun. Tapos lalapit pa sa inyo & then. Alam nyo na. Hahay!

Honestly, I hate it because pwede kong gawin after worship service is to go home na lang and rest after a tiring week sa work because actually parang yun na lang yung rest day ko.

But I love the Lord above all, and I should follow all of His instructions. Prayer life and reading God’s Word every day, incomplete parin because I still need to reach out sa mga unsaved people. I need to share God’s love for them. Para ma-experience din nila yung blessings na I’m enjoying because of Him. Like yung sa outreach namin, I learned to love na din yung mga youth dun that’s why I’m doing all of these. I’m already responsible for them.

Love=sacrifice. Like what Jesus did on the cross. So I must imitate Him thru these things. Sacrificing my comfort zones and my selfish desires just to please my Savior. Fulfilling naman pag nakita mo yung fruits na na-produce mo. Indescribable joy.

Pag nagpupunta kami dun sa outreach, lage akong dirty, extra tired, scared dahil dun sa mamang nakakatakot kasi lage siyang laseng, (hehe) broke (because sa expenses sa pamasahe), and then kasama talaga yung malulubog yung foot ko sa putik. But none of these things move me. I’ll still continue. I’ll still finish the race (because of God’s grace). BECAUSE I LOVE THOSE PEOPLE AND I LOVE THE LORD SO MUCH PERIOD.