love matters

February 27, 2008

Dearest Hannah,
I can see you from here. I can see how you easily give up your heart to anyone. How you give in to your emotion & jump into conclusion easily. Look at what you’re doing to yourself. I can see that you’re just hurting inside every time you give in.
Do u know that every time you’re hurting, I can also feel it? Even much greater, sweetie. I have given you a complete, healthy, nourished & unwounded heart. I want you to take care of it. Not to give it that easy to someone who’s not for you. Your heart is neither a punching bag nor a worthless ball that keeps on tossing to & fro, or bouncing from one to the other. Come’ on sweetie. It’s not just like that.
I know you’ve gone numerous hurtful emotional experiences. Same old experiences that broke your heart into pieces. But remember I’ve already put those heartaches away. I’ve already cleansed your heart wounds. I’ve already made that whole again. So please don’t bring those things back again to your heart. My dear, I want you to cooperate with Me, with the healing process. And please, don’t cause any heart aches again by giving in to your weak emotions over & over again to a person I haven’t given you.
Refrain from searching, looking & assuming for the right man in your life. Focus on being the right woman. And besides, I’m not yet contented at how you relate to your daddy & older brothers. Remember? They are your practice ground. Don’t mind the people around you, about the pressure regarding your love life (that you need to have it now or else it won’t come). For them, giving up your purity is just a "usual & normal thing". Come’ on! I don’t want you to settle for ordinary, usual, normal, mediocre things. I want you to go far beyond the ordinary. So I can see the difference between you and the world. Go against the flow sweetie. Oh well, they’re not the ones who will give you the best love story anyway. So listen to Me only.
Fix your eyes on me Hannah. I want you to trust Me wholly, fully, completely & absolutely. Don’t you worry. The man I’ve created for you is just around. He won’t replace you with any other girls out there. He’s just busy doing things in life for Me. So don’t ruin it, okay? I don’t need to make him fall in love with you, because I’ve already placed that love in his heart, & awaken it when My time comes, not yours. And again, I know that you’re not yet prepared in entering a relationship. Come’ on! I know you inside out.
I love you and you are worthy of true love. Why don’t you just wait? Oh well, you do have a choice, I’ve given you freewill. But look at yourself every time you do things on your own. Bucket of tears. And I’m also hurting. My timing is perfect, no advances, no delays, just perfect! Well sweetie, you just have to have me. Because I’m all you need. I’m your everything. In only Me, you can find true joy and contentment. And you know I’ll take away your desire little by little, and replace it with my desire that will actually give you the best & perfect things.
All you have to do now is to wait and get busy. Busy in doing My will for your life. Excel in all areas of your life, in your career (still have many perfect plans awaiting), family (be a good girl to your parents, and your older brothers; learn household chores), to your friends (enjoy your single life, win companions) to yourself (stay pretty & healthy) and your service with Me (your disciples, your cellgroup members, you still have a lot to do with them!) and especially your relationship with Me. Get closer so that you can be sensitive to My instructions.
It doesn’t matter how long you’ll wait for the man of your life. It’s not the issue here sweetie. It doesn’t matter Hannah. Just trust ME!
You’ll see when you choose to follow me. Aw. Incomparable, uncontainable & inexplicable things will happen in your love story. Far beyond that you could ever imagine. Excited? Me too. So better trust Me completely! I love you always.

Your Loving Father,
Jesus